Its nearly been a year since I lost my mom, two months since my pup Marlow joined her.
In this time,
I've quit two jobs.
Finished an internship.
Been on avail, then released for two commercials.
I've attended live Football & Baseball games.
I got a hug from Mickey Mouse.
Shook the hand of a gentleman who may be our next President.
I built a trellis in my garden plot.
I've driven around this beautiful city, getting people from point A to point B.
In all of this,
I've lost the ability to compromise my peace.
Even for a moment.
My mission now, and my life journey is to stay on track.
My track.
Far too long had I done things, out of obligation or work force.
I got tired.
I wasn't eliminating my debt.
I had entered a monotonous routine.
I had more money.
I wasn't rich.
I wasn't happy.
Things have gotten clearer,
moment to moment.
It's odd though,
I still have the foresight of intuition.
'Little Sparks' I like to call them.
In these moments, I can feel
my heart rate quicken,
my mind start to churn,
I can see mapped out before,
the track to my next steps.
Will I hop on board?
Will I have the energy to get in the flow?
I do feel like I'm less distracted.
By obligations,
By acquaintances,
By uncertainty.
My life,
while it has been cracked wide open,
has too gotten so much smaller.
And in that...
Is the Universe.
Where will I go?
The beauty is,
I am in a place where I do not need to know.
My bills are being paid.
I get to hug Marlows brother daily,
I tend to my garden.
I am not alone.
Whoever needs to find me,
knows where I will be.
On this tide of ups and downs,
On the Sea,
In my ease,
Turning towards the sun.
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